Well, we’ve wrapped up yet another year. It was a pretty eventful year filled with love and laughter and also lots of struggle.
I feel lucky to have spent quality time with good friends, many made the trip over to NZ and it was a blast to see them. It’s been a pretty good year in terms of my relationship, moving in with my partner and the like, and we managed to raise a cherry tomato plant. Go us. A definite highlight this year was also my Harry Potter themed 30th birthday party – all the prep reminded me how much I actually enjoy doing crafty things.
It’s also been a tough year for me, mentally and physically. I’ve had to do a lot of soul searching and make some decisions about what I truly want for myself. Therapy is helping with that, as is a very supportive partner and good friends, so I feel very lucky in that respect. It’s been a hard few months but I think I’m coming out the other side now.
Looking back at my ‘aims and aspirations‘ for 2017, things didn’t really pan out. I read more than I anticipated, and I guess I do kind of enjoy the gym. Yay? I did not reach my squat goal, but I made a conscious decision to drop weight and improve my depth around September, so I’m not too disappointed with that. My form is very good now, if I do say so myself. I didn’t write though and I definitely didn’t save money. As for being positive at work? Hmmm. Yeah. And being happy? Well my therapist says that’s too abstract a thing to aim for. Looking at parts of that though, I did start volunteering at the SPCA which I find really rewarding, I did eat way better and I did push myself outside my comfort zone. I feel like, overall, I did pretty well – even if I was horribly depressed for the last quarter of the year.
In 2018, I really want to focus on me. Not in a selfish way, but in a living life for myself kind of way. There are a lot of things I’m incredibly happy with: my relationship, my family, my friends, where I live, my commitment to fitness. I’m making some pretty major changes though, most notably starting a new job later this month. It’s scary and overwhelming but so desperately needed.
As part of my commitment to focus on me, I’ve decided to give up this whole blogging thing. My heart isn’t in it anymore. Hasn’t been for a very long time. This will be my final post. I’ll leave the blog up just in case I find I need this outlet again one day.
Happy new year. Be kind to yourself. Look after each other.